equally cursed and blessed

If all you've got to do today is find peace of mind
Come 'round, you can take a piece of mine...

I admire how musicians can come up with creative and catchy album titles. I could always relate to the songs, but rarely with the album titles. So you could imagine how I felt when I was organizing my iPod and saw the Catatonia album title "Equally Cursed and Blessed."

And if all you've got to do today is hesitate
Come here, you could leave it late with me...

I am unfortunate enough to be very punctual and excited when it came to enrollment so along with my friends, I was placed in the regular section of the 4th year-- 4S. At the start of the semester, we tried to think that maybe this was a blessing in disguise. We were forced to study since everyone around us seemed to excel academically and we had to keep up. Nakakahiya pag ikaw lang ang bokya. So we thought, we were lucky. And we had the presumption of regularity working in our favor.

You could be taking it easy on yourself
You should be making it easy on yourself...

Then, the second semester came crashing down on us. We were the only section to have recitations for RemRev... oh, closed books, no notes, just our smiles (to quote Sir Pabs). That was only on Mondays and Tuesdays. Wednesdays and Thursdays it was Commercial Law Review (with recitations) handled by Dean Sundiang-- one of the best professors and yet, the most feared. On Saturdays, we had Tax and Conflicts of Law... both with quizzes and recitations. Most of the normal people in 4S (us) looked at Friday as a day of rest. Fridays were seen as the sign that God did not hate us. We thought wrong.

Cause you and I know it's all over the front page
You give me road rage, racing through the best days
It's up to you, boy, you're driving me crazy
Thinking you may be losing your mind

Last night, Judge Albano announced that he needed some kind of basis for our grades and that we would have a quiz in Civil Law Review every Friday. Goodbye, rest day. God cast us out of Heaven (our beloved Law Lecture Room) and into the deepest and darkest circle of Hell.

Space age, road rage, fast lane...

I am blessed to be with good friends during these trying times and that they're going through this with me (not like they have any choice, 4S din sila). But I feel cursed since I am deprived of the much needed rest and time to unwind. I spend my mornings in the library instead of sleeping in, I spend my evenings reading books while blowing my nose and trying to get well from some sort of flu without resorting to sleep.

I try to look at the bright side: at least, by the time I take the bar, I'll be fully prepared since I'm forced to study. That is if I graduate this year... assuming I'll still be alive and functional next week.

So until March, I'll be singing my bad day, angry girl song from the Catatonia album.

We all live in the space age, coming down with road rage,
Racing through the best days...

Sabi nga ni Claire: Ayokong makakarinig ng 4B, 4C at 4D na nagsasabing nahihirapan sila sa buhay nila.