the love-hate relationship

on days like today, i am grateful to have a fluffy friend to welcome me home.

 i thought i chose you. it was the other way around.
i'm glad to have you home, my little shadow.

Song of the Day: Somewhere (from West Side Story)

There's a place for us, 

Somewhere a place for us

Peace and quiet and open air

Wait for us

Somewhere

1995

"after all this time?"
"always."

Song of the Day: Gotten (by Slash feat. Adam Levine)

I've been saving these last words

For one last miracle

Now I'm not sure

I can't save you if you don't let me

You just get me

Like I've never been gotten before.

reconnecting

maybe i needed to feel the way i did when i was a student with actual goals.


thank you, claire, for making me realize why i was so down lately.
we need to set new goals for ourselves.

Song of the Day: 17 Again (by The Eurythmics)

Who couldn't be together 

And who could not be apart 

We should've jumped out 

Of that airplane after all

 Flying skyways overhead 

It wasn't hard to fall 

happy news

2011 has finally been kinder.


there are things that you just have to share with friends.  i knew i was missing out on something important last friday.  


congratulations, bru and mok. can't wait for may as well. 
call it vicarious elation.
i knew i was reading and re-watching Divine Secrets for a reason.

Song of the Day: San Na Nga Ba'ng Barkada  (by Apo Hiking Society)

Ilang taon din ang nakalipas, bawat isa sa ami’y tatay na.

Nagsusumikap upang yumaman, at guminhawang kinabukasan.

Paminsan-minsan kami’y nagkikita, mga naiwan at natira.

At gaya nung araw namin sa iskwela, pag magkasama ay nagwawala.

570

we're slowly taking over. *MUWAHAHAHAHAHA!*

but seriously, congratulations to my brother. this has been a tough year for all of us, you most of all.
nobody deserves this more than you.

the family symbol. literally the ties that bind. 

Song of the Day: Firework (by Katy Perry)... kasi gusto mong na-LSS ako, brother.

Like a lightning bolt, your heart will blow

And when it's time you'll know

You just gotta ignite the light

And let it shine

Just own the night

Like the 4th of July

*my song of the day: This =Love (by The Script)

This is why we do it this is worth the pain
This is why we bow down and get back up again
This is where the heart lies, this is from above
Love is this, this is love

see ME date

there are more pressing concerns than depleting the world of the color Precious Pink.


in my case, it's Royal Blue.

Song of the Day: Bitch (by Meredith Brooks)

Just when you think 

You've got me figured out

The season's already changing

cool lolo

walking along the PhilAm building wearing shades, carrying a backpack and his iPod playing to some tune or another.  

sporadic badminton lessons when i was still a newbie.

the angel that always had good news. 

he always had a smile ready for us and i never got to say goodbye.

i thought last friday was as normal a day for both of us as any.  i didn't know it would be the last conversation we would have. i didn't even know that his birthday was coming up.

 my last words were "thank you, kuya, anghel ka talaga." and i mean it now. i am lucky to have known you.

and i will never get to ask you how you got your nickname... 

ang layo naman ng jeric sa norberto. 

you will be missed, kuya jeric. my prayers are with you. happy birthday.

Song of the Day: Blowin' in the Wind

How many times must a man look up

Before he can see the sky?

How many ears must one man have

Before he can hear people cry?

How many deaths will it take till he knows

That too many people have died?

knee-jerk reaction

having someone say "you're pretty" to my face always makes me feel uncomfortable.

especially if it's said by someone i used to like... or maybe i still like him.
so i reacted like any girl would. i aimed carefully and whacked the arm.

that whack was worth a million words, the loudest of all being: if only you hadn't been such a jerk.

Song of the Day: In Demand (by Texas)

You never saw the best of me

There's a side you'll never know

Cause love and loving are two different things

You set your sights far too low

things we love

1. friendships that allow you to think alike even when you're miles apart... or haven't talked in ages
2. chocolate cheerios in bed
3. series marathons
4. hugs
5. toddler nephews singing the alphabet song for the first time


these things keep me in check and prevent me from being the bitter person i almost am.

Song of the Day: Stop & Stare (by One Republic)

Stop and stare

I think I'm moving but I go nowhere

I know that everyone gets scared

But I've become what I can't be 

Oh, do you see what I see

blue skies

it rains because sometimes, the sky just needs to let it all out.


i think i may unleash a storm soon.

Song of the Day: Nothing At All (by Madi Diaz)

I got one foot in front of the other

All I know is what I know

And the one thing left that keeps me together

Will get me over or won't change nothing at all

charlie's angel

the secret to surviving after a breakup (or any other relationship for that matter):


never never put yourself in a position where you're totally dependent on someone else.
always find a way to fill the void.
learn what he/she knows and do it better
so that if/when they leave, you'll barely notice their absence because there will be no void to fill.

Song of the Day: Independent Women (by Destiny's Child)
Tell me how you feel about this
Who would I want if I would wanna live
I worked hard and sacrificed to get what I get
Ladies, it ain't easy bein' independent
Question: How'd you like this knowledge that I brought
Braggin' on that cash that he gave you is to front
If you're gonna brag make sure it's your money you flaunt
Depend on no one else to give you what you want

ghosts

there have been too many hauntings.


i'd rather take on the ghosts of baguio than the one lingering in the aisle between the bleach and detergent.
i ended up purchasing bathroom perfume that i do not need.

Song of the Day: (I Can't Seem To) Make You Mine (by The Clientele)

So I lingered with the people

In the silent August glade

But the rain has brought the night

And the night has brought the rain...

for the first time (a part of 30 things before 30)

i think i may be really a late bloomer.

Song of the Day: Absolutely (Story of a Girl by Nine Days)

How many days in a year 

She woke up with hope but only found fear...

Your clothes never wear as well the next day

Your hair never falls quite the same way...

grade one

i just had to put a sweater on.
then bang my head against the door.

Song of the Day: Songbird (by Fleetwood Mac)

And I wish you all the love in the world

But most of all, I wish it from myself

And the songbirds keep singing like they know the score

And I love you like never before

gene pool

pag magaling, kamag-anak.
pag nagkamali, di naka-mana.


now i know where i got the recessive psycho gene.  hopefully it never has to come out.  
i am stopping myself from unleashing it on its source and let them know they created a monster... just like them. 


it's sad because these are the people i have been taught to call family.

Song of the Day: Girl From The Gutter (by Kina)

For all the times you said "I got your back"

For all the times you stabbed me

For all the times you tried to hurt my pride

For all the pain I held down deep inside

words on cardboard

WILL MARRY FOR KAKANIN.


he asked me to catch him on facebook.


i'd like to catch him. strangle him. take him in my arms and tell him it's all gonna be okay.

Song of the Day: Science & Faith (by The Script)

Having heavy conversations about the furthest constellations of our souls

And we're just trying to find some meaning in the things that we believe in

But we've got some ways to go

Of all of the things she's ever said, she goes and says something that just knocks me dead

You won't find faith or hope down the telescope

You won't find heart and soul in the stars

You can break everything down to chemicals

But you can't explain a love like ours.

dugsh dugsh

one thing i love about my new toy is waking up to an appropriate song.

i just need someone to sing it to me.

Song of the Day: The Man Who Can't Be Moved (by The Script)

Cause maybe one day you'll wake up

And find that you're missing me

And your heart starts to wonder

Where on this earth I could be...

Adele Moment

i didn't know a facebook profile picture doubled as a time-travel machine.

all i could do was sing

Song of the Day: Someone Like You (by Adele)

I heard that you're settled down

That you found a girl and you're married now

I heard that your dreams came true

Guess she gave you things I didn't give to you

29th

i have learned a lot of valuable lessons this year

1. adulthood isn't as fun as i'd imagined
2. nobody can tell me what to do
3. some people live to be unhappy. i refuse to be one of them.
4. blood is not as thick as it seems. depende lang yan sa blood type.
5. we have to give up what we want for the people we love.

Song of the Day: Fear (by Stop Making Friends feat. Pauley Perrette)

Are you scared there's no stability

Are you afraid of your own fragility

To mend when you think you're breaking

To strength when you know you're shaking

To pray when your back's against the wall

It's just fear after all.

Cinco de Mayo Resolution

I refuse to conform to others' standard of happiness.

I live by my rules from now on and will no longer tolerate meddlers.

Song of the Day: Defying Gravity (from Stephen Sodenheim's Wicked, The Musical)

I'm through accepting limits cause someone says they're so

Some things I cannot change but till I try I'll never know

Too long I've been afraid of losing love I think I've lost

Well if that's love, it comes at much too high a cost

Full Remarks: President Obama on the Death of Osama Bin Laden

DING DONG The Wicked Terrorist is Dead

Full Remarks: President Obama on the Death of Osama Bin Laden

crap

power interruption at 2AM.
Meralco will never be able to redeem itself in my eyes.

Magkaron lang ng ibang electric company, mabilis pa ako sa alas kwatro lilipat.

They should re-consider naming their "Consumer Care" department since it doesn't sound like they actually care. Calling it "Customer Service" is an oxymoron too.  Big question is: nasan ang service?

a crush

You know, the thing that makes a fantasy great is the possibility that it might come true. And when you lose that possibility - it just kind of sucks. 


- Catherine Willows, CSI

Song of the Day: Someone Like You (by Adele)

I heard that you're settled down

That you found a girl and you're married now

I heard that your dreams came true

Guess she gave you things I didn't give to you

300th

these are 50 songs one should not be listening to when feeling down:

 1. turning tables by adele
 2. someone like you by adele
 3. talk you down by the script
 4. out of goodbyes by maroon 5
 5. need you now by lady antebellum
 6. landslide by fleetwood mac
 7. faith in fate by the coronas
 8. almost lover by a fine frenzy
 9. angel by sarah mclachlan
10. back to you by john mayer
11. barely breathing by duncan sheik
12. bell, book and candle by edie reader
13. the blower's daughter by damien rice
14. gravity by sara bareilles
15. call and answer by the barenaked ladies
16. candles by hey monday
17. tea and sympathy by jars of clay
18. digging a ditch by dave matthews band
19. everybody hurts by REM
20. perfect by alanis morissette
21. funny girl by barbra streisand
22. gotten by slash (feat. adam levine)
23. hang by matchbox 20
24. heart of the matter don henley (the india arie version ain't that bad too)
25. here i go again by white snake
26. hey jude by the beatles
27. himala by rivermaya
28. how by lisa loeb
29. i am, i feel by alisha's attic
30. i think God can explain by splender
31. i wish you love by gloria lynne
32. i'm scared by duffy
33. with or without you by u2
34. insensitive by jann arden
35. it's the end of the world by the carpenters
36. just a little hole by beth hart
37. kiss the rain by billie myers
38. last goodbye by jeff buckley
39. letting the cables sleep by bush
40. masaya by bamboo
41. no one's gonna hurt you by james iha
42. out of reach by gabrielle
43. people change by rockapella
44. Q by film (it's also known as "so alive" by the rising)
45. release me by wilson phillips
46. goodbye to you by michelle branch
47. said sadly by the smashing pumpkins feat. nina gordon
48. the scientist by coldplay
49. smile by charlie chaplin
50. you've got to hide your love away by the beatles

tudu-tudu

Song of the Day: For The First Time (by The Script)

And we don't know how we got into this mess, it's a God's test

Someone help us 'cause we're doing our best

Trying to make it work but man, these times are hard

But we're gonna start by drinking old cheap bottles of wine

Sit talking up all night, saying things we haven't for a while

joks and kaetii, taken before their time.

you are always remembered and sorely missed.

go with God to where there is no more pain.

you won't feel a thing

at a rock concert, you have to expect the unexpected.
like the band noticing you after somebody falls on you.
yep, intentional or not, i always make an impact on rock stars.

it was amazing.

Song of the Day: The Man Who Can't Be Moved (by The Script)

Maybe I'll get famous

As the man who can't be moved

And maybe you won't mean to

But you'll see me on the news

And you'll come running to the corner

Cause you know it's just for you

the last plague

i accept first born sons.

but ice cream would have to do.

Song of the Day: Like A Prayer (by Madonna)

Life is a mystery

Everyone must stand alone

I hear you call my name

And it feels like home.

money for nothing

for the past couple of weeks, there has been a lot of buzz about a six-year old boy lewdly dancing in a program staunchly supported by the marginalized sector.

i, among others, have condemned everybody involved in allowing such a segment to go on air.  most of the blame fell upon its host, who has been caught in many offensive and controversial issues before.  

the network management lacked foresight.  unless they lived in some alternate universe, management is presumably aware of all the baggage the host is carrying.  there has to be a reason why his old network dropped him, right? or why the competing networks haven't hired him, considering he had such a pull. that would've given them the edge.  but this new and budding  network needed exposure, being relatively unknown, so it decided to go for profit, ignoring the risk of having this particular host do something that would bite them in the a**.  but then again, they're in this for the money, as most people in any business are.  one would have to admire them for taking such a big risk, though.  and i applaud their hope in mankind that an ego as big as this host's would be deflated.  still, they would never had to deal with this had they taken a moment to reflect on whether this was a good move.

the sponsors of the show, like the network, took big risks.  however arrogant the host might be, one cannot deny that he has this unexplained pull over the poor sector of this country. or maybe it's the cash. i don't know.  we cannot deny that a good number of filipinos live below the poverty line hence, advertising in a show that caters to that number would mean tons of exposure, even though you're selling products that would most likely be patronized by the A and B classes (come on, if your last P200 came down to a choice of bigas and moisturizer, which would you buy?).  but yes, i guess they, too deserve some blame for supporting a show hosted by an offensive neanderthal... alright then. he's a man. he just lacked the proper breeding. 

the parents of the boy do not have clean hands either.  allowing their son to do those moves in national television for money and being proud of that? i think that says it all.

the filipino nation is not unaccountable, either.  shows like this would not have been popular had we not passively supported it.  it had to come to this before we actually took a stand.  for decades, we have supported programs that showcased the irritating chants of skimpily clad women.  and we were blinded by the happiness in the faces of the people who lined up outside the studios for easy money. we supported the pamela-mela one, otso-otso and brainless games they introduced (but thank god for the few games that actually showcase the intellectual abilities of the audience, i.e. pinoy henyo, family feud, who wants to be a millionaire and the like).  we ignored several incidents where various hosts have been offensive, particularly this one.  thus, they get bolder and bolder, thinking they can get away with it.  the public loves them anyway. 

but in law school, i was introduced to the doctrine of last clear chance.  in the back of my mind, i have always adhered to that doctrine.  we don't need a law degree to know that whoever had the last clear chance to prevent the occurrence of any unpleasant event and failed to do so deserves the blame.  in basketball, i think they call it "last touch."  we blame whoever "dropped the ball" ... the guy who could've slammed on the brakes but didn't.

in this case, it is the host.  he had the final say.  he gave his explanation (take note, it is not considered an apology).  he implied that he did not know the boy was going to dance like that, that he does not meet all contestants before hand.  he tried to mitigate the grossness of it all by saying they actually changed the music from a song associated with a sex tape to an upbeat hiphop tune.  like it made a difference.

assuming that his speech is worth believing, then at the very moment that the boy started moving like a male stripper, he shouldn't have laughed.  he shouldn't have encouraged the audience to goad the boy. and he cannot deny seeing the expression on the boy's face. i do not care why the boy was crying. the point is... HE WAS CRYING. the host should have said "STOP."  instead, he laughed and you can clearly hear him acknowledge that the boy was crying.  but he never said "STOP." i never finished the video.  but according to my friend, he made the boy do it again, this time with the skimpily clad women and some contraption that elevated the 6-year old boy as he was lewdly moving. i never saw that part and i refuse to re-watch it.  according to unicef, the more hits the video gets, the rights of the boy get violated again and again.

when time came for offering an apology, the host put the blame on his former network. i am entitled to my opinion so i do not and will  not regret saying that the statement was full of crap.  the host threatened to sue all those who voiced their concern through twitter.  he tried pulling former child stars down to his level, asking them that they were made to entertain people at a young age and they never cried child abuse.  smart answer to that retort: these "child stars" were never made to gyrate in front of crowds while being taunted by an insensitive, money-loving, egotistical, unbred neanderthal.  i don't recall anything remotely sexual to the way these children were treated or in any of the work they did. he veered away from the issue at hand by pointing the finger at others and bringing up old scandals.  he thought he was being persecuted.  of course he was.  his actions are deplorable.  sure, he donated a million pesos to a charity.  sure, he bought off... erm... compensated the stampede victims out of his own pocket, as he emphasized in his tirade.  but did he really have to say that?  in tagalog: pag nakakatulong ka, kailangan bang isampal sa mukha ng iba? kailangan talaga isumbat yun?

of course, i would expect nothing less from somebody who humiliates his best friend on air and renounces years of friendship in exchange for a business deal that did not push through. it's a reflection of what he values more... it's obviously money, not relationships or people. what else would i expect of somebody who lies about which high school he went to just to look prestigious (yes, i know exactly where he went to high school.  he was my mom's classmate-- they even had a nickname for him.  then he was my mom's younger brother's classmate the following year and the nickname stayed.  a former action star-- a nice man, by the way-- went to school with them).

then, there are his supporters.  these people have created numerous social networking accounts just to lambast those who criticized their favorite host of all time.  they have posted comments that attacked the host's detractors in a very personal manner, calling them names form "laos" to "baog" and a few other words that would have made the tulfo brothers blush. and then the words that i never even knew existed.  they believe that the host has a heart of gold and is the best thing that happened since... oh, i don't know... sliced bread.  they have expressed unbelievable loyalty to one man, which in my opinion, we could use as an example.  this is the kind of loyalty and pride we need to show toward our country, no matter how bad any situation gets. too bad they showed allegiance to the wrong person. anyway, these people have shown exactly what they are willing to do in defense of what i guess they see as their messiah.  these people have shown exactly what kind of audience the program caters to... those stricken by poverty and thus, deprived of the proper education (come on, the vocabulary is a dead giveaway). i admire how they staunchly and blindly defend their idol and yet, i cringe at how many palengkeras and jejetrolls are actually out there.  the number is overwhelming.

idol -- now that's a term to describe the host.  in history, before celebrities and superstars, an idol is considered as a representation of a god used as an object of worship.  sadly, the host is a representation of money and it shows how supporters of the show worship money.  i mean, how many people would degrade themselves, say that their lifelong dream is to hug this host for a few thousand pesos?  sure, it's easy money.  i, among others, know how hard you have to work to earn five thousand pesos and no ordinary employee makes five thousand pesos in those five seconds that you hug the host.  but i was never a fan of easy money.  i was raised to believe that you work hard for your money, because that is the only way you can respect yourself and with that, others will learn to respect you.  maybe it's the positive thing that came about my strict catholic upbringing that made me believe that fast money, more often than not, comes at the expense of your soul.  sadly, this belief has been affirmed by shows like the one i'm talking about.  

this random rambling boils down to one thing. this whole thing comes down to how poverty has affected this country.  it has crept silently from the "other side of the tracks" to the entertainment industry.  it's sad how people get caught in a stampede (literally) and die (literally) in line for entrance to a show that gives hand-outs instead of actually going out there looking for gainful employment.  i don't remember which wise man said, "give a man a fish and you feed him for a day. teach a man to fish and you feed him for a lifetime."  shows like the one i am referring to, where majority of the program is about giving out money does not teach any person values.  it only teaches one to rely on dole-outs.  it gives a man a fish.  for lack of better words (and i cannot say the phrase out loud without cringing because it sounds mata-pobre, palengkera and so unbred), "tinuturuan ang tao na maging mukhang pera."

this whole "scandal" brought a lot of issues to light: poverty, child abuse, filtering entertainment programs, breeding, good taste, lack of education, professionalism and basic human conduct.

i respect the celebrities who took a stand.  

i commend the government agencies that immediately took action to resolve this situation.

i will definitely be buying products from sponsors who pulled out because like many, i have been disgusted by the video that went viral on youtube.

i admire the passion showed by both sides, although there are some words that i may not agree with (mostly four-letter ones).

i think that the network and the sponsors have learned their lesson.  hopefully, they will think of the risks of being associated with anything that may lead to another outcry like this before considering profits.  

i am praying that the host and others like him be taught that money will not solve this particular problem. i hope the egos that need deflating be squashed (yes, i feel strongly about this).

i wish i could do more.

but for now, my words are all i have.

according to a former child star on twitter: Ang hinangad daw ni Willie ay makatulong sa tao.  So did Mother Teresa... and she didn't need money or a television show to do it.

i have been hit by jejetrolls before this google account-blogger merger. hence, i am now writing my disclaimer for any and all future trolls that may have violent reactions to what is written here, assuming they took the time to internalize and fully understand it.

fine, they may attack me and the things i wrote in this entry.  but i am entitled to my opinion. and so are they.  any defense i may have will fall on deaf ears.  i admittedly cannot please everybody.

sunday morning

breakfast at my mother's house and two appropriate songs playing from the helper's radio. 


i miss my pre-adult life.

Song of the Day: Sunday Morning (by Maroon 5)

But things just get so crazy living life gets hard to do

And I would gladly hit the road get up and go if I knew

That someday it would lead me back to you

april fool's party

last night, all the bad things about this week just melted away.

it was about food, laughter, music and the company of friends i've had for half a lifetime.

it was the perfect april fool's party.

Song of the Day: For the First Time (by The Script)

Drinking old cheap bottles of wine

Sit talking up all night

Say things we haven't for a while

We're smiling but we're close to tears

Even after all these years

I just now got the feeling

That we're meeting for the first time.

insensitive

this is what i've been afraid of, seeing too much that i've gotten used to it.

Song of the Day: One More Murder (by Better Than Ezra)

One more murder in this town

Don't mean a thing, you get accustomed 

To the sound 

One more murder in this town

Just block off the street and wrap

the 'Crime Scene' tape around 

grad season

Bill Gates' list of rules during a graduation

Rule 1: Life is not fair - get used to it!

Rule 2 : The world won't care about your self-esteem. The world will expect you to accomplish something BEFORE you feel good about yourself.

Rule 3 : You will NOT make $60,000 a year right out of high school. You won't be a vice-president with a car phone until you earn both.

Rule 4 : If you think your teacher is tough, wait till you get a boss.

Rule 5 : Flipping burgers is not beneath your dignity. Your Grandparents had a different word for burger flipping: they called it opportunity.

Rule 6: If you mess up, it's not your parents' fault, so don't whine about your mistakes, learn from them.

Rule 7 : Before you were born, your parents weren't as boring as they are now. They got that way from paying your bills, cleaning your clothes and listening to you talk about how cool you thought you were. So before you save the rain forest from the parasites of your parent's generation, try delousing the closet in your own room.

Rule 8 : Your school may have done away with winners and losers, but life HAS NOT. In some schools, they have abolished failing grades and they'll give you as MANY TIMES as you want to get the right answer. This doesn't bear the slightest resemblance to ANYTHING in real life.

Rule 9 : Life is not divided into semesters. You don't get summers off and very few employers are interested in helping you FIND YOURSELF. Do that on your own time.

Rule 10 : Television is NOT real life. In real life people actually have to leave the coffee shop and go to jobs.

Rule 11: Be nice to nerds. Chances are you'll end up working for one

from a late night show

wouldn't i love to have a secret life?

Song of the Day: Diary (by Alicia Keys)

I won't tell your secrets

Your secrets are safe with me

I will keep your secrets

Just think of me as the pages in your diary.

exorcism, part deux

From Criminal Minds: Suspect Behavior

Mick: "How do you deal with your ghosts, Coop?"

Coop: "I like to have them fly in formation."

Song of the Day: Candles (by Hey Monday)

Playback's such a waste

You're invisible to me

My wish is coming true

Erase the memory of your face...
Blow the candles out

Looks like a solo tonight

But I think I'll be alright

random sunday ramble

dinner at mom's place and ransacking her closet made me realize how fast i had to grow up.

i miss my old room

there are times when living alone is just that. living alone.

i'm a girl. i'm entitled to change my mind more than once.

Song of the Day: When I Grow Up (by Garbage)

Blood and blisters

On my fingers

Chaos rules when we're apart

Watch my temper

I go mental

I'll try to be gentle

100 Dollars

he gave me my first hundred dollar bill.

i barely remember it. i was just a baby.

he gave me constant laughter and taught me how to come up with quick comebacks.

he kept tabs on me while i was in law school.

he waited with me during the release of the bar exam results.

he joined my family in celebrating my success.

he kept pushing me to find a husband so he could be the ninong.

i'm sorry, tito rol. apparently, i kept you waiting too long.

my almost-ninong.

my neighbor.

my surrogate grandfather.

my counselor.

my ATM.

my friend.

we will all miss you.

life is quieter without you.

i hope you find peace.

Song of the Day: Landslide (by Smashing Pumpkins)

So take my love and take it down

Climb a mountain and turn around

And if you see my reflection in the snow-covered hills

Well the landslide will bring you down.

For Rogelio Sarmiento, Sr.

it changes you

cable and internet went out momentarily this afternoon.

i called SKY Cable to inquire if the system was down in my area and their customer service representative told me the areas that were having technical problems. i was nowhere near them.

but she told me she would make a report and have the problem fixed by monday AT THE LATEST.

fifteen minutes later, everything was as smooth as a baby's bottom.

now, THAT is consumer care.

a stark contrast from my MERALCO nightmare two weeks ago.

hats off to SKY Cable's customer service. every centavo you pay is worth it. i hope they keep it up.

to the SKY

cable and internet went out momentarily this afternoon.

i called SKY Cable to inquire if the system was down in my area and their customer service representative told me the areas that were having technical problems. i was nowhere near them.

but she told me she would make a report and have the problem fixed by monday AT THE LATEST.

fifteen minutes later, everything was as smooth as a baby's bottom.

now, THAT is consumer care.

a stark contrast from my MERALCO nightmare two weeks ago when they told me it would take a minimum of THREE days (a whole weekend) to restore power to five homes in our area. and they were a basic utility service.

hats off to SKY Cable's customer service. every centavo you pay is worth it. i hope they keep it up.

re-runs

silence and the cold shoulder after a week.

i should never have answered questions.

will he be cheering again tomorrow?

"i'll call you" is indeed the kiss of death in potential romance.

Song of the Day: One Week (by Barenaked Ladies)

We realized we're both to blame but what could we do?

Yesterday you just smiled at me

Cause we still got two days till we say we're sorry

one month

two days short of a month of adulthood and i have encountered majority of the causes of homeowner headaches.

i am left alone to make decisions i used to watch my mom make, wishing there was somebody i could share the responsibility with.

i'm not that strong. there are times when i just need chicken soup and my mommy by my side.

deep inside, this adult is still a little girl. sabi nga, "para lang akong nagbabahay-bahayan."

Song of the Day: Just Feel Better (by Santana feat. Steven Tyler)

I'm tired of holding on

To all the things I ought to leave behind, yeah

It's really getting old, and

I think I need a little help this time.

self-destruction

i screwed this up, didn't i?

i think i just destroyed what may possibly the best thing that happened to me.

Song of the Day: Need You Now (by Lady Antebellum)

And I wonder if I ever cross your mind

For me it happens all the time

It's a quarter after one and I'm all alone...

nasan ang liwanag

barely two weeks ago, i had to argue with two customer service representatives from Meralco's "Consumer Care" hotline because of the corporation's inefficiency to give a basic utility service. i was on a deadline. i needed electricity. i had a schedule for a busy weekend. and MERALCO basically screwed it all up.

tonight, i am still on a deadline and again, the power goes out. this is what MERALCO does best. raise their rates, deliver punctual disconnection notices and fail to provide the service their consumers deserve. and their timing is always impeccable. i think they need a little competition. nakakahiya kayo, MERALCO, basic service pa man din kayo. Kung may ibang electric company lang, matagal na akong lumipat. because i don't think there's anything crappier than the service you claim to provide.

unanswered questions

there is one question he refuses to answer. he said it won't change anything if he does.

he said what matters is this very moment.

maybe this is the happiness i've been waiting for.

i'll never know if i never try.

he is silent but deadly. maparaan din pala sya.

Song of the Day: I Hope That I Don't Fall In Love With You (by Tom Waits)

Well the music plays and you display

your heart for me to see,

I had a beer and now I hear

you calling out for me

destiny

there are moments when i think that maybe this is what i was meant to do:

to hold someone else's hand while trying to save their butt.

i wonder when someone would hold my hand while I play Wonder Woman.

Song of the Day: The Loveless (by Better Than Ezra)

moving out and moving on

congratulations on finding happiness, kenshin.

i wish you the best.

without any hope or agenda, just because it's Christmas

(well, at least the weather's still Christmassy)

Song of the Day: You're In Love (by Wilson Phillips)

I tried to find you but you were so far away

I was praying that fate would bring you back to me

Someday...

You're in love

It's enough for me to know

That you're in love

Now I'll let you go

'Cause I know that you're in love

wednesday flashbacks

i used to listen to a radio station play songs of the past during wednesdays.

the show is now defunct, i don't know if the radio station still exists. but the ghost still certainly walks the halls of my territory.

random run-ins at around 7pm on wednesdays... getting to be a habit.

and this time, the ghost was right behind me all the way to the exit.

Song of the Day: The Ghost In You (by The Psychedelic Furs)

A race is on

I'm on your side

And here in you my engines die

I'm in a mood for you

Or running away

Stars come down in you

And love, you can't give it away